Aku berhenti berharap....

"Life could be harsh sometimes, it depends solely on us to trade it with something else or to stay behind and enjoy the ride"

By me..

(Used to be someone's quote, but I change it)

aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
dengan mampu menerangi
sudut gelap hati ini
aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat
kenapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan...

aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

Em, lagu tu sebenarnya tak ada kena mengena dengan hidup aku sekarang tetapi aku mungkin jadi begini tanpa keluarga dan teman2 di sisi selama ini. Love u all...Peace :)

Trip to Singapore (Last Part)

It has been almost three weeks since I posted the first and second part of the trip. Yet, I will be hard for me to conclude the things I want to said. The trip which supposed to be working visit has become the family affairs. However, between the sadness and the happiness there, it still be memories which will remained close to my heart. Whether I like it or not, it has become a fragment of my another episode of life. Life has to go on, some things remained secret and somethings are worth unveiled. Yet, along the line, if we have been hurt, we'll never know that we may hurt somebody in return. That is destiny, whether we like it or not, life must go on whatever happens. My heart aches, thinking that whatever happens in Singapore, may be repeated. How I wish that the same mistakes I have done, will not be repeated again. I'm only a human, with a short-memory function.

Trip to Singapore (Part 2)

This maybe my longest entry, however whatever we starts, may have an end. So, this is my second part of the story..Anway despite of silent treatment by my so-called aunt, I managed to look in positive aspect of the trip. Beside being awarded $40 (Singapore dollar) by the IT company for the hassle their put me through to write their story, I still managed to get some `duit raya' from some elders in the family. Well, it is a surprise, being a working women (aha!), they said that this is my reimbursement of not able to come to Singapore for the last two years. Next year, I'm the one who will be giving out the duit raya to them :( Aside from that, I managed to improve my relationship with my so-called step cousin brother (this is his phrase: 'step-cousin') which been left in despair for the last four years because of the miscommunication and argument via e-mail. Sometimes, I wonder would it be ok for me to forget and forgive him, but anyhow my heart long for the good old days again. I still remember how close we are, playing football together (he uses forces against me as I the only cousin with the closer age gap), fighting and crying..how I miss those days. But somehow, things change a lot. I think people also changes along the line..In whatever ways we use to repair any relationship, I think it would be never be the same again. That's what happen..But deep in my heart, he is still a big brother to me, protecting and scolding me at anytime..Apart from that, this trip also saw an amazingly changes within all my counsins. Hid..especially have grown into a very beautiful young girl (this is an honest remarks) and secretly I am honoured she is in the same line with me aka mass comm, and Hid..I would like to see you 'glow' girl, in the industry. Anyway, keep up the good work though..and as for Fara, eventhough I miss seeing her, I believed, she too has grown into an amazing girl despite of her misfortune since childhood. She will be the most courageous and firm young lady, good luck. As for other cousins, I welcomed the newly entry in the family -- MOHD FADHIL OSMAN (not sure of the spelling), who are more than 20 days old. May ALLAH lead your to beautiful journey of life and protecting you all the way to the top. And for not so new entry to the family -- SUFYAN HADI SELAMAT (not sure of the spelling either!). Congratulates, you have been in the family for more than two years now, may your journey continues to be smoothly and may ALLAH bless u all the way. And for other cousins, who I have not mentioned, you still have a long way to go as I do (until the day I died.), I love you all..and the second part of the journey ends here. (To be continue..)

Trip to Singapore (Part 1)

It has been nearly two years, I haven't been to Singapore, due to some personal problems and financial problem, I thought the job offered by my boss, covering an IT company event last Thursday, was a good opportunity for me to get-together with my relatives. However, it changed badly, for the first day..I arrived in Changi Airport at about 9 am, which was an hour earlier for my assignment. Because of money and I miss MRT so much, I decided to take MRT. Basically, this is my first assignment outside Malaysia, consider Singapore as overseas, which I think more like my hometown. I was nervous and at the same time excited. This is my first assignment overseas, and I would like my boss sees me as his potential good worker. So I decided to do my very best. The first hour at the media briefing was boring, as the company is IT company and some of the reporters were more to technicality than business angle. Anyway, I have my way of doing it afterwards, so the job part was not so difficult for me, as I had attended many briefings on IT products and had experience in writing IT story.
However the hardest part is when I met my auntie later at Raffles Hospital's Banquet. I was excited as I have not seen my aunt (my mother's side) for years, however the scene turn sour after an hour later. She was starting accusing me of not keeping my promise to go to my grandma's house that day. She said, my planning to stay one day at my auntie's house (my father's side) was not a brilliant idea. She keep blaming me and accusing me in harsh tones, which apparently made me shouted back at her. I was not meant to do that, but somehow I was devastated, as my real intention after the job is basically to spent some times with them. By blaming me of not loving them and tried to accuse me of staying away from them, were rubbish. My love for them are still strong but at the same time they have to respect me as I used to respect them when I was a child. It hurts me so much as she keep accusing me of not keeping my promise and stayed away from them, which were not true. We finally made a scene in front of public, which was the first time. I hate it but I cannot stand the scene. I reach out my handbag, ready to go and could not face all the accusations, when she said that I was not brave enough to face, which I thought I cannot carry on with the conversations. I was crying hard at that time. My mind thought of leaving the city at the same day. No point of staying if no one appreciate whatever I was doing. ONLY because I decided to stay one day at my aunt's house (dad's side) to finish my work before going to my grandma's (mom's side) the next day. So, for the next two to three days, I have to bear with her actions. Fortunately, her sisters, my other aunties, did not mention the issues after the day's of argument. I don't know if all of them knew, but whoever knows about it are keeping it safely under their blanket. Lucky me..Sometimes I wonder if they still think me as their little niece or their niece which has grown up and basically have her own life to think of. However, deep in my heart, they are still my aunties and I love them dearly.. (to be continued...)

Bent

This is what I felt right now..need somebody to hold on........

"If I fall along the way pick me up and dust me off
and if I get too tired to make it be my breath so I can walk
If I need some other love give me more than I can stand
and when my smile gets old and faded wait around I'll smile again
shouldn't be so complicated just hold me and then
just hold me again can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never get put back together
you're breaking me in and this is how we will end with you and me bend
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep could you paint me better off
could you sympathize with my needs I know you think I need a lot
I started out clean but I'm jaded just phoning it in
just breaking the skin start bending me
It's never enough I feel all your pieces start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in
shouldn't be so complicated
just touch me and then just touch me again."

So, how about helping me get through all this.....

I wish I can decide now..

Em..ari ni dah ari ke-13 Ramadhan, bermaksud dah 13 ari puasa tapi aku still tak decide lagi mana aku nak raya. Sama ada balik Melaka, Singapura ataupun beraya kat KL ni..Bila dengar lagu hari raya yang dahpun mula berkumandang, hatiku mula berdetik nak balik S'pura. Dah dekat tiga tahun x menjengukkan muka, tapi hati pula berat nak balik. Yang pastinya, parents dan adik lelakiku pasti menjejakkan kaki ke Kota Singa selewat-lewatnya tanggal 2 Syawal. Itupun sebab nak menemaniku di KL yang degil x nak balik. Bukan x nak, tapi disebabkan ini first year aku sebagai "wanita bekerjaya" ni terpaksalah korban sikit, jadi yang pastinya 60% dari hatiku berkata, tahun depan dua minggu aku cuti balik S'pura, hahaha. Yang jadi kemusykilannya, hari ketiga tu aku x tau nak balik Melaka ker atau balik kampung Along. Along tu abang angkat aku..Yer, kami memang adik beradik angkat. Nak balik Melaka, takut kena laser dgn makcik2 aku sebab "terbawak" pakwe (sekarang ni ex) balik kampung, dua tiga bulan lalu. Aku bawak balik pun atas kebenaran parents aku, ingatkan niat baik dan berharap jodoh kami berpanjangan. Ternyata, tak lama lepas bawak dia balik, hubungan kami putus..ternyata,jodoh dan ajal terletak di tangan-Nya. Kita yang sebagai manusia, kadangkala leka dan alpa. Berbalik pasal nak balik kampung tadi, makcik2 aku gerenti tanya pasal dia kan, aku malaslah nak jawab..sebab semuanya dah berlalu. Tapi makcik2 aku ada tabiat yang suka menyalahkan aku atau mengenakan aku (sindirlah tu!) yang menyebabkan aku tawar hati nak balik. Tapi aku rasa kena reconsider balik keputusan aku, just because nenek tersayang. Yelah, takkan ko nak back-off semata2 atas sebab2 yang dah sejarah tu. So, kenalah berani menghadapi. Hatiku 50% berkata, aku akan balik ke Melaka. Malangnya, 50% lagi hatiku berkata, aku nak ikut Along balik, memandangkan ini entah kali keberapa dia ajak aku balik kampung dia tahun ni. Aku pulak selalu sibuk dan susah dapat cuti, itu yang membuatkan aku terkilan tu. Tapi at the same time, aku takut dipersalahkan atas keputusannya putus tunang baru-baru ini. Korang tentunya fikir aku seduce him right? Firstly, eventhough I don't like his fiancee, I don't bother to bother them though..Secondly, after getting engaged, I keep my distance..Thirdly, I met her just once..Fourthly, she is really not Along type..Fifthly, I rather not talk..Jadi, boleh buat kesimpulan kan..Aku bukanlah penyebab..Guess who popped up this idea..my mum.She really thought that I was the reason behind the break-up..Really, eventhough I like him, it never crossed my mind to be the third party and that is why after getting engaged, I keep my distance..See, I wish I can decide..

Atuk

Em, malam2 begini mengingatkan aku pada seseorang..Entah kenapa sejak tibanya Ramadhan, aku sering diingatkan dengan kenangan2 masa kecil, kenangan itu amat indah, dan kalau boleh aku ingin mengulangi kembali saat2 manis dan berharga dalam diri ini. Insan yang amat aku sayangi dan hormati sehingga kini. Kenangan pertamaku tentunya mengingatkan kembali aku dengan arwah atuk. Insan yang banyak membimbing aku dan banyak memberi semangat kepadaku. Mohd Dom Hussein..nama yg diberi. Beliau telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada tanggal 1 Januari 98 bersamaan dengan 2 Ramadhan..Arwah atuk tidak dapat kutemui, menyebabkan rasa terkilanku masih kekal di sanubari ini. Tidak ku sangka suaranya ku dengar seminggu sebelum itu adalah amanat terakhirnya buatku. ..Tanpa aku sedari kehilangannya, membuatkan aku hilang arah seketika, namun aku sempat tersedar lantas aku kejari cita2ku sehingga aku berjaya menamatkan pengajian di universiti selama 4 tahun setengah. "Lihatlah atuk, Zura dah berjaya, kalaulah atuk dapat lihat kejayaan zura ini." Ramadhan ini saksi pemergian arwah atukku, semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, Al-Fatihah...

Kembalinya Ramadhan...

Em.pejam celik, pejam celik..dah puasa balik..Sperti kebiasaannya, aku sambut dengan kesederhanaan apatah lagi serba kekurangan. Sesungguhnya puasa ini banyak mengajar aku erti kesabaran dan kepayahan. Bulan mulia ini jugalah yang menyaksikan aku dari kecil sehingga ke usia ini. Meniti hidup, detik demi detik...Aku banyak kenangan di bulan ini..Bulan mulia bagi semua umat manusia yang beragama Islam..Baru-baru ini, aku hantar surat kepada seorang sahabat lama. Dialah sahabat baik aku yang pertama masa sekolah menengah dan dia juga penguat semangat aku masa tu. Namanya ..ANDI SOFYAN MOHD SIDEK..sehingga sekarang aku masih mengingatinya.. Dia antara insan yang menyumbang kepada apa sahaja yang aku alami sekarang ini. Banyak memberi semangat dan dorongan kepada aku. Masa tu, dalam hubungan kami tiada CINTA hanya kasih-sayang seorang kawan kepada sahabatnya.Bagaimanapun, setahun selepas aku mengikuti jejaknya ke menara gading, kami terpisah kerana sebab2 yang aku dan dia sahaja yang tahu. Walaupun sudah lama kami tidak berhubungan, aku harap Ramadhan kali ini menyaksikan hubungan persahabatan kami bertaut kembali kerana dia memang seorang insan yang baik. Walaupun kami tidak berhubungan lagi, aku sentiasa mendoakan kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaannya di dunia dan akhirat. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini menyambung kembali hubungan kami. ....

Sorry...

Today..i kinda miss a friend..who? a friend who always listen to anything, whether I'm down or I'm over the moon..We kinda close after knowing each other better after become officemate..I always look up at her and admire her intelligent, determination and always wishing to be brave like her. Cause I'm kind of opposite...well i'm not jealous of her...I'm just writing this to say I'm sorry. Yesterday, I sort of blur and give her wrong info until she kind of angry with me. Sometimes, this is my nature, whether I am really blur or I am just stupid enough to make people angry. I'm kinda sensitive and this whole week just another week full of crap and shit. It kinda kill me slowly inside and hopefully this black cloud will soon find their other innocent victim. Sorry..really looking forward to see you tomorrow.

It is been a while...

Dah lama rasanya aku x tulis dlm blog aku nie..bukannya lupa, tapi himpitan kerja dan bebanan kerja yang semakin membebankan aku. Baru semalam, aku stress giler sampai menangis depan PC. Aku ingat, itulah second time aku dapat mental block, semata-mata pasal Isa. Kalau aku tahu, gerenti aku x susah payah buat story pelan struktur KL 2020. yang aku sendiri pun tak tahu wpun dah lebih 20 tahun dok kat bandar raya ni. Nasib baik ada kekawan yg mendengar keluhan aku, kalau x mesti mood aku x baik lagi. Anyway, today is better. Itupun pada mulanya nak jadi cam semalam, tapi akhirnya aku survive. Esok, bermula lagi satu episod lain.Yang pasti hidup ni panjang dan aku kena teruskan wpun aku sendiri x suka penghujungnya..

A Friend are.......

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plain things you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen
& (Z)aps you back to reality...

Life could be cruel to you sometimes..

Well the phrase that I referring to are especially for those people, who like to meddle in other peoples business, who also like to interfere and for also those who scared people. In today story, that person is my current boss. He is the kind of person who once knew your weaknesses, will forever use it against you. Beware!! I've been in that kind of situation. First, is when I sent my screen from where I supposed not to.Secondly is when I called in and said I've got MC, but the truth is I never got it. But that time, I really2 sick and the entire office staff knew about it. I went to the clinic the day after as I dont have money to go the day I supposed to go. That is why I haven't got my MC. But the thing is, I blew it. Once he knew I've been lying to him, he scolded me badly, and keep repeating of what I've done. Really hate that time, eventhough he is the one been telling me to see doctor. Quite sad, when I think about it as it sort of messing my life. However this is not the end of the world, and I will try not to think about it as a big matter..Agree with me?

Keje malam..

Sejak masuk meja ekonomi ni, aku selalu merindukan shift malam..yelah kalau kat sport atau general, kalau malam mesti sampai pukul 12 malam. Berlainan dengan orang lain, aku sememangnya suka suasana malam di ofis. Tenang dan tidak ramai orang...Lepas tu, time balik mesti ada orang hantar balik..Selain tu, aku suka browse internet malam-malam, yalah banyak info yang boleh dicari tanpa berebut dengan orang lain. Kekadang tu aku sahaja mengharapkan sesuatu kejadian besar berlaku supaya aku boleh jadi bidan terjun untuk buat liputan. Namun nampaknya, semua tu hanya tingal angan-anganku. Aku bukanlah nak tunjuk rajin tapi sememangnya aku memang suka keje malam. Satu faktor lain ialah sememangnya aku susah bangun pagi dan selalu tidur lewat. Maklumlah, mata dah diprogramkan begitu sejak azali lagi..Emm, nampaknya dah sampai masa aku pulang, walaupun sememangnya shift malam aku telahpun berakhir 9 malam tadi..Chiow....

Hari ini betul2 mencabar minda aku..dahlah terkena asgt pasal IT, yang mendalam pasal storage system yang aku selam ni tau hanyalah PC dan CPUku. Abis tu yang datang semuanya rep IT yang dah tau pun psl benda2 camni.apalagi, sakit kepala aku lagi2 ditambah dengan makanan itali dengan main coursenya `kambing'. Hai, semuanya pelik, masuk ofis lepas file story, sakit puan aku datang.Punyelah teruk aku berjalan keliling ofis, tupun nasib baik org x nampak..Setau aku hari pertama jer, benda nie akan datang. Masa aku pulak pelik sebab dia akan dtg menyerang pada hari ketiga atau keempat. Nilah yang terjadi kat aku sekarang..sakit kepala campur sakit puan, yang pasti aku takkan dapat balik awal punyer...itu dah semestinya...chow dulu beb, sakitnya makin terasa.....

Bila rindu menjelma...

Adalah sekali sepanjang hidup aku ni, aku betul2 minat kat satu mamat ni. Masa tu, aku minat orang lain tapi bila adik angkat aku ada hubungan dengan mamat "R" ni, aku pun terus angkat kaki memandangkan aku memang dah takde harapan masa tu. So, aku dengan jiwa lara ni, tetap dengan keputusan tidak akan meminati budak lelaki sehinggalah aku habis SPM. Tapi yang kelakar ni, tetiba je muncul budak ni yang aku rasa budak baru dalam area aku tinggal tu. Korang mesti tanya kenapa aku tahu pasal dia kan? 1) aku dah duduk sana lebih dari sedekad, mestilah aku kenal muka sorang2 wpun x pernah bercakap. 2) aku tanya kwn aku yg duduk dekat2 umah dia dan dia telah confirmkan yg mamat WAFIE tu (aku pun tak tau sebenarnya nama dia sampailah sekarang) memang budak baru. 3) dia ni memang lain drpd lain, x campur org sangat dan aku selalu perasan yg dia ni selalu dgn kwn2 yang memang aku pun x kenal. Anyway, time goes by dan aku x sangka aku jumpa balik after all these years. Yang kelakarnya, aku tetiba jer ingat saat2 aku minat kat dia. Yelah, dari liat nak bangun pagi pergi sekolah, terus akulah org pertama yg bangun sebelum azan subuh dan yg paling awal tunggu bas. pukul 6.15 aku dah tercacak kat bus stop sebabnya diapun tunggu bas awal. Dia ni mula2 aku ingat dia budak kampung, mana taknya, aku x pernah jumpa sorang budak lelakipun yang pakai kopiah putih pergi sekolah. Itu yang buat aku minat dia, orangnya kurus, tinggi dan selalu bwk beg yang budak sport selalunya akan letak kasut. Hehehe, anyway banyak lagi benda yang pernah aku buat semata2 aku minat kat dia. kelakarkan..bila fikirkan balik, itulah antara perkara paling berani yang pernah aku buat...selain tu, aku pernah tukar kelas tusyen semata2 nak tengok dia tiap2 kelas. Dan yang terakhir dan paling berani sekali masa lepas SPM aku ada hantar surat kat dia. Masa tu puasa dan aku kat Singapura, temankan nenek aku sebab tahun tu adalah tahun pertama Atuk aku meninggal. itulah kali pertama kami sambut puasa tanpanya. Aku antara insan paling terasa kehilangannya sebab aku cucu second atuk selepas Abg Rudie dan paling rapat dengannya. Nenek pulak berada dalam tekanan dan aku selalu tertekan sebab nenek dan makcik aku selalu bertekak, menyebabkan aku selalu dimarahi tanpa sebab. Akupun kebetulan dapat alamat mamat tu dari kwn aku dan takde tempat aku nak curahkan perasaan, jadi aku pun hantarlah kad raya kat dia sambil curahkan perasaan aku kat dia. Bukan curahkan perasaan cinta tapi perasaan tertekan aku sepanjang berada di Singapura. Aku ingat aku takkan jumpa dia lagi dan itulah kali terakhir aku hantar message kat dia, malanglah itulah permulaan sebenarnya..Lepas raya tu, aku jumpa dia balik, dan dia macam kenal aku dan selalu berikan pandangan yang dia kenal aku. Tapi kami x pernah berbual sehinggalah sekarang.Kami akan selalu terserempak dan masing2 akan berpandangan tapi xde kata2 keluar dari mulut kami. Kelakarkan...Mungkinkah sebab surat tu, dia terus mengingati aku sampai sekarang...entahlah tapi yang aku tahu dia telah membuatkan perasaan aku semakin hangat seperti yang aku alami masa zaman persekolahan dulu...

Budget

Hi pening lagi nampaknya..dua hari ni banyak nombor yang bermain dlm kepala aku ni...Maklumlah, budget akan dibentangkan oleh PM ari ni yang buatkan aku pening kepala..apatah lagi sejak ditukarkan ke meja ekonomi ni..banyak benda yang aku tak tahu dan byk benda yang aku belajar...nipun curi masa tulis dalam blog ni sebab lepas ni aku akan sibuk sehinggalah entah pukul berapa malam ini...tupun aku harap takkan ada scene jerit-menjerit...almaklumlah semua orang akan tension dan sakit kepala...aku x kisah kerja teruk sbenarnya, yg penting sibuk camneer pun aku tetap kena maintain tenang dan cool..Yang penting pengalaman yang akan aku hadapi pertama kali dengar budget dan buat budget...Seingat akulah, tahun2 lepasnya, aku x pernah berminat dengan budget memandangkan ianya berkait rapat dengan byk nombor, satu perkara yg senang memeningkan aku..kaylah, masa dah suntuk dan aku kena balik ke ofis sekarang jugak..heheheh

Yang mana satu?

Em,tentunya korang heran kenapa aku ckp macam nikan..Biasalah, dalam dua hari seminggu tu, mesti ada hari yg membosankan dan korang rasa x nak balik...Hem, macam yang aku rasa sekarang..Semua kawan aku pulak ada plan yg lain...Aku still kat ofis, tengah fikir sama ada nak tgok wayang ke x?Em, mcam mana yer...cerita PGL nampak menarik tapi abang aku nak tengok cerita lain..ALIEN..Bosannya...Kalau korangkan, nak tgok cerita apa?Ikut aku, nak tengok cerita VISIT, cerita hantu tempatan tu, best tau..tapinyer kalo tengok midnight, mesti aku takut nak balik...yelah, benda nie semua merangsang ketakutan aku..x bestnyer....walaupun hakikatnya aku suka tengok cerita hantu...hai nampaknya hati aku lebih tertarik dengan rumah yg mengingatkan aku pada gameboy adikku dan buku cerita Ramlie Awang Mursyid yang baru...Em, camner ni...

MERDEKA!!!!!

Ini hari pertama aku dan yang pastinya sempena hari kemerdekaan. Merdeka bagiku punyai makna yang luas...terpulang pada individu sendiri, sama ada yakin untuk terus ke hadapan tanpa menoleh ke belakang. Merdeka..teringat kenangan semasa kat UiTM dulu, sama2 menyelinap belakang kolej dan terus menyertai kekawan yang dok luar..Pastu sama2 berjalan kaki menuju ke Dataran Shah Alam (sekarang nie Dataran Kemerdekaan) untuk menyaksikan sendiri kemeriahan warga kampus menyambut 31 Ogos 2004. Tahun ni pula, aku sambut ke ofis, menandakan umur aku beranjak setahun lagi. Setahun lagi makin umur berganjak dan setahun lagi aku semakin ke arah kedewasaan yang selama ini aku nantikan..Yang pasti, bila difikirkan kembali, ingin saja aku kembali ke zaman kanak-kanak, zaman yang tidak pernah kenal erti apa itu kesusahan.....

Hanya aku yang mengerti.............................