Crazy COVID-19

Link Hai there..it has been what...14 years after my last entry. Gosh, how fast time flies. I have entered the 40th club. Just an update on my life currently. Fast forward, I am a mother with three children. I got married in 2017 and now I have three awesome children. The first two are in their twenties and the youngest one going to be third in few weeks! Anyway, my husband is an awesome guy, an opposite of me of course. Thanks Allah for an awesome match indeed. I am very grateful. Oh well, so far things have been great in this department. The only thing or what I should say is the challenges, that we are facing now, not only us, but the whole world is currently facing. We are looking at what we say..a health crisis or pandemic..virus COVID-19, an invisible enemy. A ruthless one that always evolving, killing people everyday, with no specific target and everyone is its target. Taking sons, daughters, dads, mothers, grandsons, grandaughters, tearing families apart and so forth. It is endless and creates axiety to everyone. People are forced to follow SOPs under "this new normal" and it has been like this for two years now. It is just crazy. Emotionally and physically I am drained, very tired and so many emotions bottled up right now. Six of my family members are currently positive and currently treated in hospitals, quarantined beyond reasons! I will share more when I have time. Now, I need to sleep for a while...

Letting go

I'll never think it could be so hard..letting go. At times, I still think I have feelings for him. Especially when he sms ing, even when he was still with me. I know, somehow, he is with someone now. I am happy for him. I knew that, since then, he was not meant for me. Now, I thinked him as best pal. But do I? Damn, I need to meet other people soon. Just to broaden up my "little" horizon.

Hello 26

Yesterday..I turned 26. I don't really know whether I am now at the peak of my job or not. As far as I concerned, my heart and mind still remain as true and loyal to my current job. Still, there are so much emptiness in my heart..not because of friends and family. But the other parts of my heart which is still searching. Searching for the person who is compatible, and the most important thing that really love me, more than I love him. Am I desperate? No, but I admit, this emptiness is eating me slowly. I have come to an age where you need someone to rely, and even to listen to your whining and all that crap..and not even friends can fulfill that..coz it was left to be fulfill for that special ones..Sorry girls..when your age is increasing..somehow that sensitive and emotional feeling might eating you up..

" When love beckons, follow him, even the way ahead is steep"

It's just me ..already past the mid 20s :P

Travelling pants

This is the second time I went to Laos..all the memory came back to me instantly..

Fed Up

I am fed up with all the nonsense. I am not the bosses blue eyes!! Stop pestering me with all that. I am simply doing my work. I don't have any intention to take any advantages of any people. I am dammed pissed off with all these crap. Just stop..stop it!!!

Love quotes

“the minute i heard my first love story, i started looking for you not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don`t finally meet somewhere. They are in each other all along. That's why when we meet our love, it`s like we`ve known it for a long time" (by Mowlana Jalaluddin Rumi)
P/S: Cinta? Dengarkan album M.Nasir yang terbaru, aku ingin mengalami percintaan sehebat itu.

Happy new year Artgal!!

It has been six months since January. Yet, I couldn't think of a resolution, an objective that I would like to achieve this year. Ok, let me put up this way. This is my first entry of the year, which showed that I have been busy with work and other stuffs, which I don't think any of it has brought much impact to my life. The interesting part was, there was one time when I've been given assignment to UK. It is my first time to the country and it turned out that I was the youngest among them. The worst thing was I have zero knowledge on defense and security equipments, and yet my assignments needed me to cover as much as defense aspect as well as economic. The trouble arouse during our welcomed dinner in London, where they eventually touched on the failed-missile Sea Skua. I don't even know what are they talking about during the time. I was quite blur at that time. Luckily, the ....were quite helpful and shared information with me. For the last three days in UK, I learned a lot of things and experienced new things, which I appreciated so much. Dear London, wait for me..I will be there soon...